TW/CW: addiction, drugs, shame, NSFW language

My little brother’s official cause of death was a drug overdose. His blood, which had stopped being a stream, contained pure fentanyl and two prescription anti-anxiety medications for which he had no prescription.

Photo of a combat-style boot on a person’s jeans-clad leg

Like 80% of people with opioid substance use disorder (aka addiction)…


person dressed as terrifying clown, approaching camera brandishing sledgehammer
I also sometimes feel like this

When I got my second Covid vaccine shot, I was psyched to be able to see friends and be in public again without worrying that I was going to spread or catch a deadly virus. Most of my friends felt the same. …


We’ve all been there — it’s almost noon, you’ve been tapping at your work laptop for three hours, and your stomach has given way from growling to vague nausea. But wait — you haven’t gotten groceries in a week and a half, and you really want to save that last…


I’ve always been a bit of a raincloud. When I was a little kid, adults described me as “somber.” I went 90s-goth as soon as I hit puberty. I’ll admit to thinking that it’s fun, at least sometimes, to be dark and dramatic.

I take absolutely no joy, though, in…


I haven’t said much of anything online, really, about Ruth Bader Ginsburg in the light of her passing. Despite my rabid, loud feminism, the only thing I’ve said or shared on social media is this retweet:

Mona Eltahawy tweet reading “if your democracy is jeopardized by the death of one person, then your democracy is a failure”
I mean…

RBG herself, to me, is kind of not the point. As a Supreme Court…


“Not EVERYTHING is about capitalism.”

I could hear the frustration in my friend’s voice even through text message. I don’t remember exactly what we’d been arguing about; I just remember her clear irritation. Listen. I know that my leftist rantings get on my liberal friends’ nerves. I know that it’s…


I’m a leftist. I wear it on my sleeve. Though my beliefs have evolved over time, I’ve believed in the tenets of Marxism for actual decades, since before I learned the term and what it meant. When socialism and other forms of leftism started to gain steam in the public…


Thirty years ago, Peggy McIntosh wrote her now-famous essay, White Privilege: Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack. Though the essay is three decades old and the conversation around privilege and oppression has advanced, it still rings true: she, like me, carries a sort of Bag of Holding every bit as imaginary yet…


My brother existed for 10,027 days.

Almost exactly two weeks ago, down to the hour, his breathing slowed to a stop. His heart, metaphorically big but tangibly healthy, ran out of oxygen to pump to his organs. …


CW: gym culture, diet culture, body negativity

What I mean is, I don’t exist. I’d say “I’m a unicorn,” except that I’m not currently romantically involved with a male/female couple. Let me explain:

I lift weights. Not a lot; just your bog-standard three workouts a week. The leg press machine…

Rachel Baird

Cottagecore communist. Intersectional feminist. Obsessed with issues of food and body, socioeconomic class, gender, and sexuality. she/her

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